That is the deep story of the amateur. It is the story of everyone who has ever loved something more than they feared looking foolish.
They never have.
And so the painter becomes an accountant who paints on Sundays, furtively, as if committing a crime. The poet becomes a lawyer who scribbles verses on napkins during lunch, then crumples them up. The inventor becomes a project manager who files patents for the corporation, never for the soul. Amateur